Paul Walker - Gone Forever? Or Just as We Know Him?
My heart goes out to Paul's daughter and his family. I did not know him, but when someone dies even through a few degrees of separation there is a sense of a connection and certainly a feeling of loss.
I'm writing today because of my recent personal experience during hypnosis and because of the new sense of security I've found having read Dr. Brian Weiss' first four books, Many Lives Many Masters, Through Time into Healing, Only Love is Real and Messages from the Masters.
Logic, science and rationale tell us when we die that that is the end. There is no more. Just one more life bleated out. Remembered today. Forgotten tomorrow. Throw a tombstone on it and call it a day.
Interestingly enough MY logic won't allow me to believe this. My personal experience and acute self-awareness in times of great need tell me this can't be all there is. Yes, in my darkest hours, the overwhelming sense of there being... something more has saved me, has even kept me alive.
See, logic has never held me in loving arms. Science has never offered me a shoulder to lean on. And rationale has yet to caringly wipe a grieving tear from my eye. So call it delusion. Call it human ego. Call it whatever fits into your personal belief system, but I believe in something greater. And if I spend my entire life believing in something that doesn't exist at least I lived a happy life (doing it myyyyyyyy way - Frank Sinatra).
Those who believe or "know" there is no after life, often times, live in great fear of their own end. When will it come? How will it happen? Will I know I'm about to die? I know no fear of death because I believe I am a soul, a beautiful being of light and in my spirit form I am forever eternal, immortal for all of time. This is a great solace for my earthly life and I can live fuller and freer without the weight of my impending doom.
My beliefs have evolved from previous guilt-ridden, fear-stricken thought systems to my present state of all-encompassing love. I believe, like when light is present darkness flees, where love is present fear cannot be.
I see my life very simply. It's a lesson. I have this life to learn one very important lesson. I have this life to first ascertain what that lesson is and then it is my duty (to myself) to do my utmost to learn that lesson while hurting as few of my fellow humans as possible along the way.
I was raised very conservative Christian, but not to be Christ-like. I saw hypocrisy in all of the lives of those who thought it their life-mission to show me how evil I was and how I needed to be fixed. Ironically, those who sought to 'fix' me never tried the only thing that could. Love. I was not accepted for who I was, I was taught when I'm good enough than I'll be loved. Well, I've since accepted that I will never be good enough... I will never be good enough to receive the projection of acceptance and therefore condition-based love, and... THAT IS PERFECTLY FINE WITH ME.
Now I love myself for who I am. Now I have compassion for those who cannot see themselves as deserving of love because they grew up as I, being judged and told they "aren't good enough". Now I don't believe in a judgmental angry God who is out to get me. Now I believe that God is love and love is in all of us so we must be one. We must be the same. We must be equal. I am not right and you wrong. Nor are you right and I am wrong. WE JUST ARE... And we are good enough just the way we are.
So now I believe that we are here to learn and to love and to learn to love. Real love. True love. Which means acceptance; love with no conditions. And, then, I believe we return to spirit form and we keep learning and loving.
I love macaroni and cheese, I love the ocean and I love believing in Something Greater than Myself. It's a preference and that is all. I hope this finds you well and in no way makes you feel attacked or unloved. The intent is merely to share light and full acceptance of all.