ALM

Words whether written with warmth or described deep in darkness may reflect our inner truths giving over to heartfelt emotion thus defining our humanness.

NEW HEAVEN NEW EARTH

 

What if we loved without condition

What if we held no bias

What if we lived with freedom

What if we refused to be pious

Would we suffer from lack

Or feelings of life amiss

Or would we be wealthy perhaps

In healthy happy bliss

The sun provides it's rays to us

Ne'er hoping to hear

Your gratitude and thanks, though

It continues through the year

The ocean provides us breath

Which we cannot live without

It never requests a penance

Freely giving removes all doubt

The forest trees share life as well

Taking in our waste

Never fearing hurtful pain

At our thankless passing haste

Are we not more than trees?

Can we not shine as sun

Does water overwhelm ability

Of our race with fear be done 

I would see an earth

Where hurt we do no more

When humans choose to love the other

As heart's sweet paramour

No more a passing judgment

On an unknown passer by

No more a fear of loss of love

From those dear whom we keep nigh

Nay instead we would see

The heart of human life

We would cease from blaming guilt

And end our worrisome strife

Oh what a world we would be

If love we choose to do

Accepting beauty in imperfection

Not toll presumed we're due

This would be a planet I

Would never want to leave

And perhaps our hearts would join

To share in this belief

All my love dear sweet world

May I add to you

Ne'er again blaming within

I remove all guilt from you

I seek life and peace and love

A hippy I nay not be

Merely a survivor who

Wants love so to be free

But give I must this love of which

I speak unto you

Share I shall this warming joy

That fills me through and through

And perhaps on this day

A change will come to be

The new heaven the new earth

Forever more we love us free

Dear Notes... 11/19/13

I'm not sure how people go back and re-read journal entries from only days prior and not be fully aware of the presence of the ego. It's incredible how it (the ego) will vomit accusatory, angry, hostile projections all to avoid love in any capacity. It's really sad. But more sad still, is the fact that we listen to it; believe it; take it's words as truth and then, of all the horrors, we act upon it. 

I was reading "Messages from the Masters" (by Dr. Brian Weiss) yesterday and talking to (my man) Dom. The story I was reading was about a couple who, though married for sometime, was plagued with moderately often ego-based 'pride fights'. According to the book the two  would stay mad at each other for around five days, minimum before sorting their issues. So (of course) Dr. Weiss pointed out, "But you worked it out. You always work it out?"

"Yes," the couple replied.

"So why suffer for 5 days? Why not 3?"

Looking to each other, the man and wife agreed they could do 3 days.

"Or 1?"

"Yeah okay."

"Well, you're going to fix it anyway," Dr. Weiss went on, "Why not 6 hours? Why not 3? 1?"

The point is "remember you're ultimate goal". Ideally in a relationship you're ultimate goal is to reach a solution. If you're goal is 'find a solution' then you WILL find one. But, if your goal is 'be right' you will find an 'out' instead.

Often, in my experience, the way to maintain my 'rightness' was to throw in the towel and "walk with my head held high". [uhm drama queen, much?]

Anyone who thinks they "walk away with their head held high" and that that somehow means they've won, clearly, isn't admitting to what follows...

Speaking from personal experience: me, alone on my bathroom floor, crying my eyes out.

Did I mention I was ALONE?

Who sees my head held high now? Winning by throwing in the towel prematurely certainly wasn't for my benefit.

There in lies the joke: pride benefits NOT the person exuding it. It is for the benefit of the opposing individual. Yet, they are not benefited either. So basically...

Pride ... Is a f$!#ing joke. 

Pride = Separation = Aloneness = Anti-Love = Pain comes from Fear

+

Love

=

Love

Love cancels out all fear. 

 

Thank you for listening 'Notes', you're the only one who understands me. (*Ohwow... I actually wrote that.) *added 2/19/14)