Dear Notes... 11/19/13
I'm not sure how people go back and re-read journal entries from only days prior and not be fully aware of the presence of the ego. It's incredible how it (the ego) will vomit accusatory, angry, hostile projections all to avoid love in any capacity. It's really sad. But more sad still, is the fact that we listen to it; believe it; take it's words as truth and then, of all the horrors, we act upon it.
I was reading "Messages from the Masters" (by Dr. Brian Weiss) yesterday and talking to (my man) Dom. The story I was reading was about a couple who, though married for sometime, was plagued with moderately often ego-based 'pride fights'. According to the book the two would stay mad at each other for around five days, minimum before sorting their issues. So (of course) Dr. Weiss pointed out, "But you worked it out. You always work it out?"
"Yes," the couple replied.
"So why suffer for 5 days? Why not 3?"
Looking to each other, the man and wife agreed they could do 3 days.
"Well, you're going to fix it anyway," Dr. Weiss went on, "Why not 6 hours? Why not 3? 1?"
The point is "remember you're ultimate goal". Ideally in a relationship you're ultimate goal is to reach a solution. If you're goal is 'find a solution' then you WILL find one. But, if your goal is 'be right' you will find an 'out' instead.
Often, in my experience, the way to maintain my 'rightness' was to throw in the towel and "walk with my head held high". [uhm drama queen, much?]
Anyone who thinks they "walk away with their head held high" and that that somehow means they've won, clearly, isn't admitting to what follows...
Speaking from personal experience: me, alone on my bathroom floor, crying my eyes out.
Did I mention I was ALONE?
Who sees my head held high now? Winning by throwing in the towel prematurely certainly wasn't for my benefit.
There in lies the joke: pride benefits NOT the person exuding it. It is for the benefit of the opposing individual. Yet, they are not benefited either. So basically...
Pride ... Is a f$!#ing joke.
Pride = Separation = Aloneness = Anti-Love = Pain comes from Fear
Love cancels out all fear.
Thank you for listening 'Notes', you're the only one who understands me. (*Ohwow... I actually wrote that.) *added 2/19/14)